I’m twenty-six years old and I want to die.
So when I wake up at the hospital with my brother weeping over my illness, I know my life is about to change. What I didn’t expect was to get a nurse with cruel eyes and a morbid sense of humor that surpasses my own.
I’m even more surprised when I arrive at Harlow Sanctum and realize my brother has had me committed to an unorthodox rehabilitation center that rooms people based on their treatment plan. And my roommate is none other than the man with cruel eyes I met the day prior.
I crave death—he craves life.
Can two people like us cure each other?
I was given this as an ARC in return for an honest review!
BEFORE I START! Please take a moment to read through the trigger warnings the author has written out for all her readers.
It goes as follows:
This book is not a self help book. Everything is morally grey and not for those who don’t enjoy dark themed books. This is a deep dive into emotional and mental illness from my perspective. Not everyone experiences depression/irrational thoughts the same.
This book romanticizes rehabilitation centers and mentally unwell people falling in love.
National hotline 1-800-273-8255
This book dallies with mentally ill characters in a fake unorthodox rehab setting. Bakersville is a fictional place. As is Harlow Sanctum. In no way, shape, or form is this based on real life institutions.
The characters joke about their illness and make light of their conditions at times. If you are sensitive to this aspect please do not read this book. I am not making light of the seriousness of their illnesses but rather expressing what it is like from my own perspective and experience to have depression and mental illness.
Warnings include the following:
If you are sensitive to the following words please do not continue with reading this story: sick, psychopath, crazy, sane.
Physical Violence, Explicit Sex scenes, Morbid Humor, Hate fucking, Degradation, Explicit Gore, Suicide and the desire to die (explicit at times), Self harm/thoughts of harming ones self (Masochist) (explicit at times), Childhood mental abuse trauma, Emotional abuse, Explicit death scenes, Traumatic therapy sessions, bite kink, pain kink.
11.10.23: This has been on my TBR since she released a slight teaser for it! I am an avid fan of K.M. Moronova's since the first book she released so this was something worth waiting for IMO.
When I started reading this I was stunned, there were no words for the depths it will take you. The raw emotions and questions it will blindly throw you into. If I could give a simple explanation to this book it would be, this is poetic, dark and deprived with a lasting longing of something further from myself.
I felt things reading this story that made me utterly ashamed of myself, it made me question my life for a moment before reminding my I am not Wynn and I do not know what it feels like to be trapped in her darkened mind. Though this book gives a you slight glimpse into that darkness and the author did an amazing job pulling you into Wynn's reality I feel as though if in another universe she is there and we truly do not understand they workings or whys of her troubled mind.
For the sake of keeping the mystery of her story alive, I will leave this as my last sentence. Give it a chance, love I mean, no matter the darkness swirling within the confines of your mind. Give the light of love a chance to stitch your soul's fabric into place.